It’s probably a bad idea to bring this up, but today is the first day I’ve willingly gone without a cigarette in years. I’m not quite sure what came over me, but I’ve decided, at least for the time being, to give quitting a try.
To that end I talked with my doctor and was prescribed full strength 24-hour nicotine replacement patches. I’ve one on now. It seems to work in that I’m not climbing the walls, though I’m by no means exactly calm either. I keep getting urges to go and have a smoke, while knowing that it’s mostly habit and not addiction.
By that I mean, there’s nicotine in my system from the patch, so it’s not withdrawal. Rather it seems to be my brain telling me, “You should go have one now.” Ah me.
So why did I decide to quit? It’s not really health as I’ve not had any health problems bad enough at this point, though that could always change. It’s not really the company I keep. Many of my friends smoke. There’s no pressure at work to quit. So why? As I said above, I’m not sure why. Perhaps it’s just because I’m on the greedy and selfish side. 🙂
At the current rate a year’s worth of cigarettes is worth either a week in Bali, hotel and airfare included, or a brand new very good Nikon lens. Either would be a nice treat. But you know, it’s not that simple because I can afford either of those (not at the moment but certainly before the year is finished).
If I figure it out, I’ll be sure to write something about it.
Slower, cheaper, less useful…